The lyrics of that song had been "ringing" in my head for the past week.. well, at least the chorus. I have to admit, I don’t know the whole song… anyway, it goes:
Mahal mo ba ako? (Do you love me?)
Bakit sinaktan mo? (Why did you hurt me?)
Mahal mo ba ako? (Do you love me?)
Puso’y tapat sa’yo (I’ve been faithful to you)
Umaasa, na mapansin mo (Hoping I’ll get your attention)
Sana naman, sana naman, sana naman (Will you please, won’t you please)
Pagbigyan mo (Give me a chance)
Haha I find it funny. I don’t know why I find myself internally listening to that song but somehow, sitting down and thinking about it, it seems to reflect the sad reality of what this world view as love. Just a bit of a backgroud, this song was sung by a girl (although i don’t know if the composer is a girl too) but anyway, it sounds like she’s singing it to someone whom she loves. Let’s not look at the guy (coz I might end up giving biased remarks) but just look at the words she said.
It’s quite true, I have to admit that when someone said he/she loves us, we have this certain notion that he/she will treat us differently from the rest.. and somehow, that different treatment is like a VIP treatment. We kinda expected him/her to treat us in a way that is special and well, shall i say, loving? Anyway.. I have to say it’s not just in boy-girl relationship but in any other relationship there is. I recall once that my friend’s sister was asking me how come he seems not to love them. She was saying that she sees her brother treat other people in a nicer way compared to the way he treats them. She even felt that he takes his family for granted. Erm, I don’t remember what my reply was but, do you get the point? Even families seem to ask that to their kin. "Do you love me? Why are you doing all these things? Can you stop hurting me please? I’m supposed to feel important.. but why do I feel so insignificant?"
No, that wasn’t what my friend’s sister said in the end… That last line, i just thought of it spontaneously. What really struck me with these lyrics was the first two lines.. "Do you love me? Why did you hurt me?" I once read (or heard) that you can never love without giving but you can give without loving. The hurt, I think it’s part of loving. It’s not always a bed of roses. Or maybe, it still IS a bed of roses.. just that, when we think of a bed of roses, we think of the soft, fragrant petals without remembering that these flowers have thorns! We can get so caught up with looking at the beautiful picture and when reality shows its face, we cry in horror, "this can’t be happening!!!"
Reflecting a bit further, I really find it sad. It seems that in this song, the girl just focused on herself. Okay, maybe that’s the reason why she’s asking, because she wants to know what the guy has to say. But then still, it sounds selfish. I can’t help but think of the love of my Maker. His love knows no bounds.. His love – unselfish, unconditional. I wonder how many times He’s "tempted" to say those very words to me but He relented.. not that He thinks it’s futile but because it is not in His nature to do just that. I know that no matter how many times I hurt Him, failed Him, disobeyed Him, I am still His love.. and that no matter how far I tried to hide from Him (okay, I don’t think of these things, ok? I love God enough to stay close to Him), He will search for me and when He finds me, He will once again shower me with His love and restore me. God’s love is faithful and true, no matter what happens, His love for me will stay. I know I didn’t do anything to deserve such a love but I’m grateful and thankful for that love. Knowing how painful it could be to love without being loved in return, it just makes me want to love Him more in return. In the same way I can never outgive God, I know I can never outlove God. (is there such a word?) But, one thing I can do is to love Him with all I have and all I am.
"Though mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the Lord who has compassion on you. – Isaiah 54:10
p.s. and the greatest thing about the love of my Maker is that He is offers it to anyone who wants to have it! and it’s for free! =D just call on His Name, and He will surely come to lavish you with His love. =)
